Down with the Sickness

Shortly after I posted my last entry, I started to feel under the weather. I had a bit of abdominal pain that I had originally associated with hormonal issues but after a few days the pain started to worsen. After diagnosing myself through the internet and discovering that I had cancer, appendicitis, a failing liver and bleeding ulcers I decided to let an actual doctor assess my situation. It turns out that I have none of these ailments (at least that I'm aware of). However, I haven't had much success in finding what I do have besides a large non-diseased liver and a fiberous tumor on my uterus which is pretty common. There are some good days where I feel alright with mild heartburn and abdominal pain and there are bad days where it feels like I've been run over by a truck numerous times. As this illness continues I am growing increasingly frustrated because it's been a little over a month since I have felt like myself. Also, not having health insurance when you really need it gets pretty damn expensive. Word to the wise, sonograms are not cheap and also not very pleasant. I'm lucky that my boyfriend is so down to earth because if he was as high strung as I am we would've been to the ER numerous times by now. It's nice having someone talk some sense into me when I'm feeling panicky. It is also nice to have a nurse for a sister, thanks for talking me off the ledge numerous time, Amber! I am headed back to the doctor on Monday to hopefully figure out what the hell is going on inside of me. I haven't had a beer, wine or any other alcoholic beverage in over a month and mama needs her sugar (so to speak).

I am still an unemployed schmuck. Right now I'm working with a temp agency that has set me up with a couple random, bitchwork jobs. I have spent the last week scanning documents into a computer and it has been incredibly rewarding and stimulating in the most sarcastic kind of way. I have literally be standing in front of a scanner for three days straight and it has been very monotonous. I think it would help if I was able to listen to music while scanning but that is not allowed either. I'm almost done with the project and I hope that the staffing agency can hook me up with something a little less tedious next time. I've been tossing around the idea of going back to school to become an english teacher. I am still not sure about it but if I do want to go back to school now would be the time to do it. I really want to make myself more marketable. You would think that after five years in college I would be a very marketable person but that is not the case. I haven't quite decided if that's what I want to do but it's a thought. I seem to have a lot of good thoughts while going through this quarter life crisis but none of them seem to come into fruition. We'll see what the future holds.

Other than my current sickness, there hasn't been much going on around our house. It seems as if the dog has more energy than ever and that is all fine and good except for the fact that I really just want to veg out and not go outside millions of time during the night. Cody is wonderful, as always, and I'm quite sure I don't deserve him. I'm not saying that just to get brownie points either. It is very true and, as cheesy and cliche as this sounds, I am very lucky to have him. He makes me happy. I'm done with the cheese now.

Hopefully I will be back to myself soon and that all of this sickness isn't anything serious. Send good vibes my way! Bye for now